A feather in my cap

My spiritual journey I have chosen to follow leads me to take stock each day of the things I'm proud of and grateful for. Today, my heart is overwhelmingly filled with the pride I have for the six fantastic girls I coach in basketball.
Some of the best highlights of my week are when I go to training and games to see my girls play and to see how they've grown with their skills this year. I often find myself sitting back and looking at them on the court and am filled with so much happiness.
They have gone from bottom of the ladder without a win last season with their last coach, now this season, we are 2nd on the ladder and have only one loss to our record which is so fantastic. To see how their confidence has grown is great! And just quietly, I get a lot out of this myself and feel such a great sense of satisfaction and achievement to be able to quietly say to myself "I did that!"
Our girls are playing the top team tomorrow and at this late stage, we're playing with 4 players which is a bit of a worry. I've been asking the Goddess to provide me with a replacement player who will bring us over the line to a win with this team! How thrilling would that be if we did!!

Feeling a little fragile

Sometimes the Goddess deals things my way which I've never been able to explain.
My beautiful daughter's brittle bones is one of those such things.
I don't think I'm angry at her for giving my baby this thing but days like today, I feel full of despair with lots of "Why my daughter???"
I can cope with knowing that I have OI and am ready and able to take on any of the challenges life deals me with it. Why Sarah though??
We've spent the day once again at the Children's Hospital in Melbourne getting this awful infusion pumped into her. I don't know why but I always feel so drained afterward and find that I fall in a heap for a few days after every infusion. Poor James had me swinging by his work on the way home today and throwing myself into his arms crying on his shoulder.
I don't think he understands the space I'm in - nor should I expect him to understand as he is so lucky enough not to have had a child with any lasting sickness/illness.
I feel quite alone with this today and want to curl up in bed and sleep the rest of the day away. Unfortunately, I have basketball to coach this afternoon as well as parent/teacher interviews to attend so curling up and forgetting the world today doesn't seem an option!

*sigh* Tomorrow is another day...